Monday, September 20, 2010

Chosen Mothers

This is just an amazing poem. 

For Chosen Mothers

Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures, and a couple by habit. This year, nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of a child with special needs. Did you ever wonder how mothers like this are chosen?

Somehow I visualize God hovering over earth selecting His instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, He instructs His angels to make notes in a giant ledger.

“Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron saint, Matthew. Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron saint, Cecelia. Rudledge, Carrie, twins. Patron saint… give her Jude. He’s used to profanity.”

Finally, He passes a name to an angel and smiles, “Give her a child with special needs.”

The angel curious. “Why this one, God? She’s so happy.” “Exactly”, smiles God. “Could I give a child with special needs a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel.”

“But has she patience?” asked the angel. “I don’t want her to have too much patience or she will drown in a seal of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wears off, she’ll handle it.

“I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I’m going to give her has his own world She has to make him live in her world and that is not going to be easy.”

“This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness.” The angels gasps, “Selfishness? Is that a virtue?” God nods. “If she can’t separate herself from the child occasionally, she’ll never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with a child less than perfect. She doesn’t realize it yet, but she’s to be envied. She will never take for granted a ’spoken word’. She will never consider a ’step’ ordinary. When her child says “Mama’ for the first time she will be present at a miracle and know it! When she describes a tree or sunset to her child, she will see it as few people ever see my creations.

“I will permit her to see clearly the things I see… ignorance, cruelty, prejudice… and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my side.

“And what about her patron saint?” asks the angel, her pen poised in mid-air.

God smiles. “A mirror will suffice.”

Thursday, September 16, 2010

24 weeks!

I went in for my week 24 appointment early this week.  I was seeing my new Dr. for the first time, so I was actually a little ALOT nervous!  My blood pressure was pretty high again.  It was high last month too, but I was nervous about my seeing my other Dr. for the last time on that visit.  I'm really thinking the BP is a non-issue, but we are watching it.  He measured the height of the fundus and I measured exactly 24 weeks, so we are right on schedule! 

As far as the new doc, he was amazing.  You walk in his office and there is a picture of a Dr. sitting at his desk with Jesus standing behind him!  He was a God send!  We had a nice little chat, and discussed lots of things including induction, episiotomy, C-section, our children, and more!  As far as induction goes, I was induced with Colt and Luke, but not sure if I am going to go that route this time.  With Luke, I didn't have an option.  I was getting a little pre-eclamsia.  I kind of want to go into labor on my own this time around.  I may change my mind when I'm 39 weeks and miserable, but he said he would induce at 39 weeks if I was ready.  Which I would have to be at least dilated to a 2, and thinning.  I know TMI.  He said he would not do anything that puts the baby at risk regardless of what I wanted.  He only has a 15% C-section rate, so he said he would do all he could to prevent that, and I'm thankful for that because I do NOT want a C-section!  If she were to be breech, he will attempt to turn her. 

As far as weight gain, I had gained 2 more pounds.  Total weight gain is 12lbs now, which I believe is great!  Considering, I usually gain 40+ during pregnancy!  I don't want to gain more than 10 more lbs during the next 3 months, and unless I begin to swell I think it will be no problem.  Haha!  On a fun note, we are going for a 4D ultrasound in about 2 weeks.  I'm excited to get a little sneak peak of Miss Luci Colt! 

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Oh my! Have we had some busy weeks!

Ok, so Brea is wearing us out!  Volleyball has started so we're running to those games and tournaments, she has at least 2 softball tournaments a month, she cheers for the middle school football team, takes a tumble class, she is in the church youth group, and helps with the nursery at church!  Her Daddy is really loving having to get up at 5:15 to have her to school by 6am for Volleyball and athletics.  Is it always gonna be like this?  Oh my, and what about when the rest of the kids start!  Just shoot me now! 

I'm in my 24th week now!  We are counting down the days, and can not wait to meet our little girl.  We have decided on a name as well.  Her name is Luci Colt. She is being named after her amazing big brother.  She is our little miracle girl.  The pregnancy is going wonderful.  She kicks and squirms all the time, and I'm loving it!  Luke feels her kick and he thinks she is ready to come out! 

The upstairs remodel is nearly finished.  They are painting tomorrow and then all that is left is laying the floors.  I'm hoping to be moving kids around very soon!

Sorry for such a long break in posts, but I'm usually too exhaused in the evenings to even look at the computer, not to mention the fact the we run Brea all over the countryside! Enjoy the pictures!

This is Brea's latest softball trophy!  I was thankful it is actually getting some kind of use other than collecting dust!  Luke loves this thing!!


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