Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Hold On

 It's that day again.  The day I hate to see coming.  To be honest, I loathe this whole entire time of year.  Sorry folks, but it's just hard to be positive.  I don't really know how to even act on this day.  It's not a day for celebration.  I know it was for Colt, but not for me. 

This time of year I tend to just go through the motions.  I try to make Christmas great for my kids.  I put on the smile.  I decorate the tree. I buy the presents, but I just don't feel it.  What I've realized is that Christmas is just not my holiday! For those of you who can't quite understand..I offer this: It’s not the Christmas story — the gift of everlasting life and love and light — offered to the world in the form of a baby in a manger. I  love Jesus. A lot.  It's just the shopping, baking, decorating and all that.  The Christmas movies, the cards about spreading joy and cheer it just feels like false advertisement.  Every thing is just a painful reminder that things are not as they should be.  Then there's the Christmas music and all the sad stories on the radio.  I'm just being honest here.... I can be driving down the road and those songs or stories come on and I just want to punch out the window. Seriously. 

With that said.. I am trying.  Trying to find the joy of Christmas.  I'm trying to feel the same excitement the kids do when their eyes light up at the sight of the beautifully decorated yards and houses, or the excitement when they get to see their family and cousins.  Where do I find it?  How do I hold onto Christmas? How can I get back Christmas? How can I live Christmas again?  Reminding myself today and every day that there will come a day that His Light will shine before all men, and all will bow, and all will be made right.

I truly hope you all have a Merry Christmas


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